The mighty wind

During Anaadhi I had an odd, extremely vivid dream after the dream machine came.

..........I was alone in the house and the front door slammed open from the wind. When I rushed to close it I could barely move it an inch. Using all of might and body strength I could only hold it in place. While leaning against the door with my whole body fully rigid the other half of the double front door blew open. Then all of the windows began to rattle and the whole house began to shake and felt as if it was being lifted off of it's foundation.

I looked outside and it was not the wind at all. It was an unlimited enormous conscious force that was way bigger then the wind but contained the wind. The mighty wind was barely a knee or an elbow in this force. I realized that it was going to bring the whole house down and there was not one thing I could do about it................

I woke up very happy that I was not going to be able to resist being dismantled. I wondered why I was using all my might to prevent it when I want it so much. I figured it was symbolic. Now it also seems to be happening in many ways on all levels even externally as well. I don't care how it goes as long as it goes. So lots of unprocessed stuff has gone out to sea and many things are very different in many subtle and not so subtle ways.